

I've had a wonderful mother's day. Scott kept telling the girls all day to say "Happy Mama's Day." They would say it and then say, "Party? Presents?" Thanks for everything you did to make it a wonderful day Scott! You have so much going on with finals this week and you are always so good to me.
Sometimes I can't believe that I actually have two girls of my own. I still feel like a little girl a lot of the time. I can't even describe how much joy I have felt in being a mother. I always knew that becoming a mom was what a wanted most. When I was growing up and we were supposed to tell people what we wanted to become I'd say a teacher or a fashion designer or an artist or a florist or a dancer... I think I even had a phase of wanting to be a horseback rider! Inside I always knew though, that I wanted to be a mom and not have to work outside the home. I'm incredibly thankful that this dream of motherhood has come true. Since our girls were born almost two years ago our lives have become "them." Everything we do revolves around naps, or meal time, etc. etc. I wouldn't trade it for anything and feel so fulfilled with the important job I get to do. I'm amazed at how much my girls learn and that they truly do soak everything up. I love teaching them things and watching them grow up. Every stage is exciting and rewarding.
I've learned a lot about myself since becoming a mom.
-I've realized that I'm not as patient as I want to be. When I lose my temper with the girls I always feel bad about it immediately after. It is a good thing they are so forgiving!
-I've realized that I expect a lot of my girls. Sometimes I forget that they are so little and when I say, "No dumping the bath water all over the floor," they might not comprehend that I REALLY mean it!
-I've realized that at this stage of life I'm just not able to get a whole lot out of Church. Between the snacks flying everywhere, the girls battling for my lap, and us trying to teach them how to whisper we are happy that we make it through the 3 hours every week!
-I've also realized that even though everyday with little kids is different that I thrive on keeping a sort of schedule and structure.
-I've realized when the girls are happy mom is happy, but if Mom is happy the girls stay happier too.
-I've realized what a big responsibility motherhood is. Sometimes I feel overwhelmed that I've been entrusted with 2 smart and beautiful daughters of God.
-I've realized that I can't do it alone! What would I do without my Scott, our families, good friends, and of course the guidance of the Spirit and the love and blessings from our Savior and Father in Heaven?
I've also realized that...
-I can go on little sleep.
-I can rock crying or sick babies all night long.
-I can nurse twins for a year.
-I can put my girls needs in front of my own.
-I can push a grocery cart and pull a stroller at the same time.
-I can sing primary and silly songs over and over again.
-I can come up with creative ways to keep the girls happy.
And most importantly, even though I make a lot of mistakes I can love two little girls more than I ever imagined and I'd do absolutely ANYTHING for both of them.
Before we were putting the girls to bed Scott was playing the piano and I was holding the girls on my lap on the rocking chair. They held still enough to snuggle with me for a few minutes and I was overwhelmed by the tenderness of being a mom. I had flashbacks to when they were babies and I would rock them in that chair and wait anxiously for Scott to come home from school and help me. What precious times these are. Thank you Maddie and Bella for letting me be your mama!